IN MEMORY OF
NELAHN ECIJA OXENDINE
miscarried November 27, 1998.
by Susan Oxendine:
I've had difficulty conceiving for two years since I made the biggest mistake
of my life. At 17, I was pregnant in 1995, and only to hide this from my parents,
I had an abortion and have been trying to have another since I left home - not to
replace, but to give my child all the love that I could possibly give, even
though a place in my heart always will be full of guilt and hurt for what I had done.
I was pregnant and unaware in November of 1998 and when I found out, it was only
because I had pains in the process of miscarrying. Yet, I had hope that everything
would be okay, but things went wrong. I love my child even if I never saw her, I
miss her and want this dedicated to her because I am unable to communicate with
her in any other way. I must go on and just pray that I will be blessed with
another child, this time to have the opportunity to share my love.