IN MEMORY OF
stillborn November 30, 2000.
My Dearest Angel In Heaven Dylan,
This site has been such a blessing for me personally. To have a special place to go, remember and write down my feelings and how much you touched my life is truly a gift. It is November 23, 2009 and next week would have been your 9th birthday. I cannot believe it's been 9 years since that day, the only day I was ever able to hold you, see you, be with you. I think about the moment of your birth, it was just so bittersweet. I knew I had to be strong for myself, so that I could handle what I had to do. I knew I had to have my wits about me, so I could remember you, your scent, your little body, your sweet face. I knew I had to have strong arms to hold you and never forget how it felt with you close to me. A mother never forgets, and I have never forgotten nor will I ever forget you. Time will never erase the memory, it only helps heal the pain of the great loss. I have so much to do here, but I know that when the good Lord calls me home, I have something special awaiting for me, and that is you.
Life is busy here. Your brothers and sister keep me going. I read thru some of the entries on this site and saw one from your Dad that mentioned how much your sister misses you. She always sends the balloon up to heaven for you whenever we have one. She thinks about you. She is so special to us, and just a joy. Your big brothers are doing well. Time is going by fast and I know soon they'll be on their own, in the world finding their way. Everyone is growing up and changing. I am so excited to see what the future brings and how it all unfolds. I rest easy in knowing God has a plan for us all, and its a good one.
I am not sure Dan, if you will ever find this note but if you should know that I will never regret the time I spent with you, and the years we were together. I am sorry Dan for all I did and how I never gave you a chance you deserved for us to give it another try. I know we've both moved on from things now, but just know that I will always appreciate and care deeply for you, for the two beautiful children you blessed my life with, and I can only pray for a future of friendship and kindness between us. You are always in my thoughts & prayers.
All my love today and all days, to my angel in heaven...............Mommy