IN MEMORY OF
DYLAN ZENTZ (09/20/2010)
Recently your sister and I took down the special box I keep the memories of you in. I thought I had shown her before, but turns out she had never seen a picture of you. I watched her as she cradeled the picture in her little hands, and carefully looked at everything that belongs to you...your sweater, blanket, cards, letters and so on. It touches me that she loves you so much and she's never met you. It is as if somewhere in the spirit world you had a connection. Its fascinating. Your sister will be 9 on Friday. She's such a blessing and joy to so many. I am very proud of her. I was going thru posts and found one from your Dad from 6/10, so I will use this opportunity Dan to tell you I believe everything in life happens for a reason, I am sorry our not working out continues to keep you in a place you want to forget and move on from. Even though I am where I am and with whom, it doesn't erase my past and ya know I am not sure I want it to. I enjoy my memories the good and bad, I think a lot of my healing is based on self forgiveness and my relationship with Christ. I wish you would find a church to go and worship in, I think it would be so helpful in your life. Love is out there, just waiting to be found. You are a great person and I know you will find the right woman to share your life with, have more children with, and build a future with. I know we have our differences from time to time, but I genuinely wish you success in all areas of your life. I am sorry I have hurt you, I can't undo that. I don't think I meant to, I just had to do what was right for me so I made some big decisions I live with every moment of every day. Yes I wish things would have worked out differently, I entered into that covenant with you expecting things to be one way, but they turned out completely different. I know I am where I need to be, things are not easy at times, but I get thru and I know you will too. I ask for your forgiveness but I am okay even if you feel you can't give that to me. I try to focus on what I have learned and apply that to my life now. With that I appreciate you writing on this site, kind of a safe mutual place to go and just express ourselves, I welcome that. God Bless.