miscarried January 14th, 2001.
Remembered by Mommy, Daddy, Big Brother Stephen, Big Sisters Erin & Kristyn:
My precious angel baby Devan. How I miss you so. I found out about you on Nov. 18th 2000 by a home pregnancy test. I was so excited. But didn't want to get my hopes up until I had a blood test from the dr. to confirm.I found out on Nov. 21st that indeed you were inside me. We had tried for a year to get pregnant, with so many fertility problems, you were our miracle baby right along with your big sister Kristyn. She luckily made it here safe. I knew about you for 8.1 weeks, and carried you in my womb for 11.3 weeks. You were my special Thanksgiving blessing. You were due 3 August 2001, on your sister Erin's birthday,but because mommy has to have c-sections, you would have been born 1 to 2 weeks earlier then your due date, so we chose July 24th as the c-section date, which would have been perfect and right along in the line of all our birthdays. Your sister Erin born 8/3/90, Mommy 9/9/68, your brother Stephen born 10/29/88, Daddy 11/30/66, and your sister Kristyn born 12/15/98. We all fell in love with you instantly. You were so wanted, so loved, so welcomed into our family. I talked to you all the time when you were inside me. Now I look up into heaven and talk to you every night before I cry myself to sleep. Your big sister Kristyn used to kiss my tummy every day and say baby brudder, although we weren't sure if you were a boy or girl. Your big brother Stephen wanted a brother so bad, he talked Kristyn into saying baby brudder. If you would have been born and been a boy, you would have been named Ethan Daniel. If you were a girl, we had talked about Devan Rhiannon. But we weren't sure about the name Devan. Now, I know Deva means Celestial Spirit, and you are so much a Celestial Spirit, so we decided to go ahead and name you Devan.Deva, with an N at the end.Devan can be used for both a boy or a girl, so its perfect for you. I can't tell you how much it hurt to lose you, physically and emotionally. You were going to be our last baby. Our family would finally be complete, after years of infertility. I am having such a hard time dealing with your loss. You were so important to me. I hope you know how much you are loved, and missed. You have many cousins up there in heaven with you, in the celestial kingdom, and Uncle Steve and Aunt Arlene are up there too to watch over you. I know you are safe, in the arms of your Father in Heaven. That brings some peace to my heart, but it still aches so much to hold you in my arms, and see your beautiful face. I know I will see you someday, when it is my time to join you. I know we will all be a family again, together forever. Until then, I hope you know how much you are loved and missed down here on earth. I hope if there are any brothers or sisters up there with you waiting to be born to us, that you will watch over them, and make sure they arrive safely, when the time comes. We love you Devan. Your forever in our hearts. Love, Mommy, Daddy, big brother Stephen, big sisters Erin & Kristyn


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