IN MEMORY OF
MY FIRST - ISHMAEL
I'm sorry for what I did. I'm sorry for what I didn't do. I'm sorry I pretended
you were not who you were, for so many years. I was so wrong.
You lived for such a short time in my body, but I never held you. I never saw you.
You were never born.
You live with God now. I'm grateful to God for caring for you in a way that I
And now it is time to acknowledge to you that you were mine. You were my first.
God put you in my care, and I failed you.
I hope God will forgive my sins and take me to heaven when His time is right,
so that I might have a second chance to hold you and mother you,
and tell you
that you are good, and I love you.
Rest and be joyful forever in God's care.